Have you ever noticed how sometimes you get so used to something the way it is, that even if it's not so great, you don't even realize it, until it changes?
Well, I had that exact thought the other day---about my kitchen window!! It had been getting so progressively dirty, that I hadn't even realized it! Our house backs up to a beautiful pasture, and we often see deer, foxes, coyotes, and other wildlife out there. This kitchen window overlooks that pasture, and as I passed by the window a few days ago, I noticed something out in the pasture. I stopped to take a second look, expecting to see an animal of some kind. Upon closer inspection--to my absolute disgust--I realized it was only a large spot on my window! Good grief!
The very next day, I lugged a 10-ft. ladder over to the outside of the window, climbed up and washed it. It took several passes and LOTS of elbow grease to get it clean. A thin layer of worm slime, frog spit and other gunk was stuck like glue on that puppy. Three dirty rags later, I had a clean kitchen window. Amazing how good something that simple can make you feel. It was cathartic almost. I love that view, and I had forgotten what I was missing until it was restored again.
My life has been like that window.
Covered with slime; spit; sin.
It happened so gradually, I didn't even realize it. I just kept going through the motions, the bad choices, the missteps that had led to another, and then another, and then another. So on and so on. The vicious cycle of sin that pulls you down and leaves you spiritually gasping for air...I was there. My window was caked with that junk.
But praise the Lord, I had Someone who cared enough to come and gently proclaim that He didn't like the view anymore. Many, many dirty rags later, my soul was clean again. Just like new. Amazing grace; He shaped a Genesis week from the chaos called my life.
The difference between walking in freedom and walking in sludge is like night and day....but sometimes it takes a really clean window to notice.
~Create in me a new, clean heart, O God, filled with right desires and clean thoughts.~Psalm 51:10